nearly end of the year lo!! haaha

see that? yup its the end of the year...
and 2013 is coming... feel great?!
nah... as everyone wish doomsday didnt come...
aiks... feel sad deep inside my heart...
so that mean life still have to go on...
(if doomsday was here i wouldnt writing this post)

as i say the end of the year...
i lost many things this year...
i get a betrayal from my friend...
give anti by some people...
and even my consider best friend less talk to me!! fuck!
i dont know whether he already know the secret...
but... he really dont so talk to me already...
i still remember last time his friend say to him: Walao you so many friend so good, see me less friend girlfriend also tiada...
then i deeply remember how he answer his friend in front of me!
he said aiya friend so many for what? 1 is good enough lo the truely one then he face to me...
right or not?? then he high five with me with my answer yes with full of satisfied...
but... things change when the night has come...
because of 1 girl... why this girl affect me so much thing! niama!
she is elder than me and she can make trouble to me!
i think my best friend know the secret liao and he dont talk to me often now!
he didnt even ask for me to celebrate Christmas with his family anymore!

dont know when i can manage my relationship well...
i really fuck up my life this year!
i am so emo this year that i dont know what should i do next...
i am missing my own road and thinking...
so next year must wake up and manage things well...
the plan for next year first is MAYDAY!!! FUCK YEAH!
its on my birthday!!! so nice!!! i going KL for 5 days~~~
gonna relax in that 5 days~~~ weeew~~~
hope can find something to do there... wee~~~
hope my friend's friend is a liang moi then i can go play play with!! haha jkjk
(Bernard see the post dont punch me ah!!! haha)

i suddenly miss there...
ya there... the place that i had leave 2 weeks ago...
i know there is not so good... but it also a nice stage for me...
Thomas Music... my lesson or should i say rental fee for his room was every Thursday...
and i didnt go tonight and also last week night... weew~~~
got  a bit kinda miss there... but its time for me to leave there...
cause no partner there anymore... DEEPLY NO!
although still got two lenglui there can join with but no feel at all!
i dont know leng lui!! i want singing soul mate!!!
you know what i am saying?! OPPA GANGNAM STYLE!!! haha
great performance last 2 weeks...

lets flash back to last week! i go to Karambunai at 24 Dec yup its Christmas Eve...
with my family... erm quite boring there just swimming with my relative there...
play some cards game and also PSP...
my mum brought my bro a new phone with Digi plan!! HTC One X...
woohooO!! even now my bro had a smart phone than me!!! ahaha
i dont care phones!~~~ wee~~~
so we go to Karambunai and play along there...
when at midnight 12am means Christmas...
i was wondering my phone will have any phone call or message...
guess what?? i had one message!!! from a nearly stranger message...
wishing me merry Christmas... ok better than zero...
then i also sent to my best friend see whether he got invite me or not...
but too bad he didnt reply me after he saying merry Christmas to you too...
fuck up!! haha... i am lazy to type any message to anyone already...
since some years... i just reply those who wish me!...
maybe some one i will sent to... but those some really just one or two! haha
FOREVER ALONE!!! wee~~~

my singing soul mate next year going to KL study so bad!! truely BAD!!!
i want to recruit a new girl partner niama!!!
who want to make friends with me?? i am very kind d dont scare!! haha
haiz... meaningless life... no target, no money, nothing i left..
why doomsday not coming!! haha...
haiz! i think if 2013 can change my life and change my destiny!
like movie right?! too bad movie is movie...

talk about movie!
i watch CZ12 already they say is Jackie Chan last movie...
owh too bad one pro actor not gonna make nice movie again...
that movie is nice must watch! haha...
Rise Of The Guardian check!
Life Of Pi check!
and many nice movie need to see...
see got people invite me or not... orelse... go see myself?! haha
haiz alone till like that meaningless!!!

suddenly many songs come out from my minds...
remind me that many songs i still need to talk to someone...
someone that i am still waiting for...
hey YOU! i got many romantic songs for YOU!
now please come out and let me sing to YOU!
dont ask me who is YOU!
cause i am still waiting the YOU! come out!
haha... YOU... hey i just met YOU! wuakakakaka...
since i didnt perform anymore guess what?
someone call me make an album with my band and sent to them...
what should i do?? sure dont care about it...
no one can store my voice up and listen!!
want listen to me!! come find me!!
although i know they are kidding and so do I!!! haha

ever think that my singing is good...
but i think i am improving...
i need to improve!! IMPROVE to more powerful! haha
but i dont know how...
i can tell that i already stop improving since year 2010...
the year i lose all my faith and trust! haha
think back i am so bad in the year after i leave senior 3 Tshung Tsin...
no one ever know what i did.... phew~~~ nicely... haha

but i am turning good in these year...
the cost i need to suffer from my relationship.. phew~~~
think about my relationship some one promise me something i think she already forget..
hope she remember some day when that day was over!! lolz..
i think she already forgot what we made promise of...
never mind i used to it... i used to it...
习惯成自然... ahhahaha... FFG not the first time i had met...
so... blank promise 1 more! haha... dont care...
i think i gtg sleep its 3am!! lol next time just continue bb

Christmas Performance

yes is today i had a performance and also the last for this year...
and also the last in Thomas Music....
i will miss anything about there but too bad i had to go...
actually today i am not feeling well...
i had a bad cough and also have some flu...
so... i just go on...
no matter what i need to perform the last perform nicely...

so the performance get well and got many applause and screaming from the audience...
good too... after the show i nearly cough out my lung...
it so pain in my throat... yiu~~~
i am a bad throat protector...
i will not protect my throat even i know i need to perform...
that me... maybe i cant do the best for you...
but i will try my best to do it the best for you~~
i mean for me... ops~~~ say wrong... haha

so well is a nice perform and this is the last time perform with the 2 sis...
i mean 2 beautiful siblings... the last time...
back to the show... before mine show begin...
many "suck" performer go perform there...
they so suck... lolz... after that will be my party~~~
i want to hear your applause and screaming from the audience...
although i am on a bad condition...

the 1st song... Oppa Gangnam Style...
just like what i said... whole audience was HIGH!!!
and i get many applause and some your girl screaming haha...
although i dont know Korean but i know that song... haha
i know i am not singing properly the pronunciation...
but almost same then is good enough... wew~~

after that all those show sure get the audience attraction..
that me~~~ haha... always try something new...
back to 90's songs... on also... haha sup sup~~~
then after that i think go back home and take some bath guess what?
its KFC time~~~~ haha got people dapao for me so good...
wew so my throat feeling more worse but that good for a training... haha

so i think that my night for today and also the last time there...
i will miss everything there....
LevenD'Jessco... i miss you all...
i miss when the time we are still together...
playing our favorite songs and we all work together and put our effort in one song...
and finally come out a nice cover.... wow~~~
when we will do it again? when...
those time are over now its time to move on...
no more kaki for jamming and singing and performing...
now just have my games and songs... nothing left...

a bad news my facebook cant use again...
so... i cant on facebook again with my comp..
but still i will see some through phone but will be less..
if want find me dont go for facebook do for my handphone call or sms also welcome... hehe
i guess no one also will find me on facebook...
everyday open but still no people find me chat also..
and sure i also didnt go find people chat because i dont know what to say...
beside that i think facebook was so not important for me...
i guess so... i can many days didnt up facebook alo ok d ah
 so my friends or anyone want to find me sms or call me thank you...
 if my credit was run out i cant reply you but nevermind when i get reloaded...
i sure will reply you... i  will not make you wait so long time d haha

i think beside these thing i think nothing to share with today...
i am very sleepy right now got aything more i will type it out the rest gua,, haha
i still got manytihings now when i am free i think i will go

update xia! haha

12.12.12.. i think is a special day...
its the last day that the date can be repeated...
so guess what? i do nothing but in home playing games like no tomorrow!!
then my mum back she brought some KFC because she is late home...
and we are planning to go watch movie so she didnt cook just some KFC...
really some cause just 3 pieces... i think is her boss got spend they all eat KFC leftover... haha

so we just ate it and guess what my house many durian...
so i eat finish KFC then go for durian!! oh yeah!!!
after the durian we wait for the movie time...
we are watching "The Life Of Pi" its a nice movie...
you all can go watch it... if i am Pi i sure will die already...
i think so.. i dont have the faith to keep myself too long..
so there goes the movie and i eat popcorn and drink cola...
then my bro say he is hungry so we go for supper at FU YUAN...

eat some economic mee... with some sao mai...
yeah that made my 12.12.12 seems good right?
and i forgot that tomorrow have singing practice....
and i already ate KFC durian popcorn... wow combo to my throat...
but who care i am TITANIUM!!! haha...
so today i bring my counted as broken throat go sing...
hmmm nice juga nothing special happen haha...

oh yeah remind you guys i have a performance at my teacher house..
its a early Christmas Party... and i am performing quite many of songs...
let see... Gangnam Style, Staying Alive, Smoke On The Water, Eye Of The Tiger,光辉岁月,  Rhythm Of Love... wow is quite many... wew~~~ gonna care my throat... hehe...
so who wanna join for the Christmas Party please come along haha...
cause teacher say can bring your friends and family but i bring no one go...
and it on next monday... so i hope can see someone of my friends there...
although i know no one watching this blog... hahahahaha...
so i am talking to some kind of invisible friends... wew~~~

so 2012 its gonna end.... still dont know is the end of the world or not...
but at least we are living we must appreciate it...
my life also counted as normal life with some wild dreams..
i have less friends through this year...
i do nothing on this year...
just movie, sing k, and no much more i think...
so because of some cases i think i start avoiding of talking with girls....
wew~~~ that things make me feel bad and nothing more...
i really promise myself not to get too close with other anymore...
even the friends of your really very good to ou and you think she/he is a best friends of yours...
i think i would not give any advice anymore... i dont think i will become like before...

i just have some few friends now... i mean those beside me d la~~
i think few of them is enough even dont have girl inside...
i am afraid of girl you know?? haha
i dont know after that cases i think i am afraid of girls...
i dont think i really know what she thinking when i know what she thinking...
haiz... even now someone find me i will just 敷衍过就好...
even though not much people find me... wew~~~

hey~~~ i am fine ok??
dont think too much about me... think about yourself...
you dont need me anymore trust me...
every of my EXPECTED best friend of girl will be ignore me when they got their boyfriend...
haha that normal right?? who guy love their girl attract that close with a guy...
come on~~~ i am always the sacrifice... i am used to it... nevermind...
hurt me while you can not every girl can hurt me like you do...
so now she is leaving my world...
i am glad that she found her boy... and leave me....
wew~~~ happily ever after ok?? dont come find me when you are arguing...

so its gonna 2013 i have no dreams at all...
i have nothing to do also... nothing to aim but just mayday concert...
my life still meaningless... hope i can met someone else next year...
i also dont know who the someone else...
but i hope she/he will turn out and change my life just what she and you did...

友情认真起来比爱情来得厉害。。。
so if you wanna truely be my friend... do it...
but try not make too close of me...
cause i cant so close with him/her anymore...
dont tell me your secret i also wouldnt sampat for it...
just like 最熟悉的陌生人... haha...
i know i know you... but pretend not to be...

人类就是这样。。。思想那么复杂做什么？
简单一些些。。。生活就轻松一些些。。。不好吗？？
其实我为什么不谈恋爱？？哈哈。。。
如果我用心追哪怕我没人要?
我不想追因为我找不到可以让我找回恋爱的感觉。。。
我跟其他人不一样。。。
我思想很简单的。。。只不过我真的暂时不想谈恋爱。。。
如果是某人来追我那不用讲。。。一定 ON。。。
但是我还没练习好怎样追人。。。

如果那个人是你的你不用追，她都会停下来让你赶上。。。
但如果她对你没有心。。。你追到天边她也不会让你追上的。。。
我觉得开始对写故事有了兴趣（虽然以前有写过）。。。
但是我的故事没有结局，没有开头。。。
我的故事就是我的人生。。。
辉煌的写出我的故事，读者是自己。。。
什么样的故事就有什么样的结尾。。。
我以前写的爱情故事已经不知放到哪里去了。。。

那个故事也是只有两个人看过。。。
我想她们已经忘光光了。。。哈哈
但是她们在我的生命里，扮演了很重要的角色。。。
她们是我的人生转折点。。。
两个人现在的情况我不大清楚。。。
但也应该过得很好吧。。。
哈哈。。。写了一大堆废话，是时候停了。。。
明天还有些事情要做，就在此告别吧。。。

Finish Exam and Graduate tomorrow!! yeah!

that my tittle~!
tomorrow i am gonna graduate from nothing...
aiya just a lan c course also want graduate...
that college want money bah mao bian say what compulsory...
fine just go la haha at Sutera Harbour Pacific Hotel...
go only la no diao although need to pay RM 180 lolz..
my parent even dont wanna go those sucks graduation...

really not important one i already finish exam and i think i gonna fail gao gao..
haiz... since when i will just start to study ah!! haiz...
sad kia know that exam fee is 80++ pound but still not hardworking!!!
shitty me!!!! haha... haiz.. sad nia..

and and AND AND!!! I BOUGHT ROCK ZONE TICKET!!! WOHHHO!!!!
hehe... its the Mayday Concert bah!!!
at next year of my birthday awh!!! so sweet~~~~
i am gonna give my 21 birthday to Mayday that day...
WE GONNA ROCK THE PLACE!!! YEAH!!!
I AM GONNA SING LIKE NO TOMORROW!!! lolz...

i actually hope Dec 21 is doomsday...
but after got this concert i not so hope that Dec 21 is gonna Doomsday...
hope not gonna have a doomsday that time...
if have... too sad then... end of life no concert... no birthday present for myself!!! haha
hey hey hey!!! coi coi coi!! haha... sure have concert and my birthday!! haha
finally wait for the moment!!! MAYDAY!! also one of my idol!!
good good!!! enjoy life that important...

i nearly know all their songs not just new songs ah!!
i mean really ALL!!! from the first album till now wew~~~~ haha
 guess what i got some plan on Dec till next year something..
wew~~~ hope it works~~~ then can go for concert ler~~~~ oh yeah~~~

bla bla bla... many things have to say...
but you know... i am lazy to type so long and just giving myself to see...
that not fun... so... i think its time to say goodbye again...
although long time no update but trust me...
i really really... many things to say...
but i know no one will see this blog so forget about it...
who wanna know something or someone or somewhere come come find me...
haha ok la bb